Marhysa Welter

As September arrived and the world acknowledged Suicide Prevention Month, I found myself reflecting on the profound impact of mental health awareness and the tragic loss of my best friend, Denni. The statistics are staggering, the stories heartbreaking, but my personal experience with Denni serves as a poignant reminder of the urgent need for open dialogue and support surrounding mental health.
Denni was a vibrant soul, a person who filled my life with laughter and joy. Our time together was characterized by playful banter, spontaneous adventures, and a bond that felt unbreakable. I first encountered her at my workplace, the Legacy Dinner Theater, in April while she was with her friends from the hype band. She was part of the road crew responsible for setup, teardown, and all the tasks in between. I was fortunate to see her at several events, including Stevens Point, St. Michael, Eagan July Fun Fest, Elkhorn, and our final gathering at Cragun’s in Brainerd. Denni was exceptional in her role, contributing to the hype with remarkable grace and enthusiasm.
Observing her in her element was truly a delight; she thrived amidst the chaos and excitement, and it was evident how much she cherished her work. I remember our last hug at Cragun’s, a warm embrace filled with love, comfort, and a sense of connection that I now wish I could hold onto forever. In that moment, I had no idea it would be our final goodbye. I can still hear her playful voice echoing in my mind, saying, “I knew you had another hype post in you.” It was her way of encouraging me to embrace my passions, a reminder of her unwavering support.
According to the National Institute of Mental Health, suicide is a leading cause of death in the United States, with over 45,000 lives lost annually. The World Health Organization estimates that close to 800,000 people die by suicide each year worldwide. These numbers represent individuals with stories, dreams, and loved ones left behind, just like Denni and me.
Denni was more than just a statistic; she was like an older sister to me, always lifting my spirits and encouraging me to chase my dreams. However, beneath her radiant exterior, she fought battles that I naively underestimated. I was blissfully unaware of the depth of her struggles and the pain she carried. In hindsight, I can see the signs, but at the time, I was consumed by my own life, oblivious to her cries for help.
August 31 was the last day I had the pleasure of seeing Denni in person. We spent that afternoon laughing and reminiscing about our shared experiences. The warmth of her presence was undeniable, and I left feeling grateful for our friendship. Little did I know that just a few days later, on Sept. 2, our last connection online would also slip away. My heart aches as I recall that final conversation — one filled with enthusiasm and normalcy, a stark contrast to the devastating reality that would soon follow.
Every statistic and fact about suicide prevention now feels personal. I often wish I had taken the time to ask her how she was truly feeling, to dig deeper beyond the surface-level conversations we often shared. I could have been there for her.
Suicide Prevention Month serves as an essential reminder that we must prioritize mental health and be vigilant in recognizing the signs of someone in distress. According to the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention, nearly 90% of individuals who die by suicide have an underlying mental health condition. Yet, the stigma surrounding mental health issues often prevents people from seeking help.
Denni’s story emphasizes the importance of breaking this stigma. She was a vibrant person who, on the outside, appeared to have it all together. Yet, inside, she was battling feelings of hopelessness and despair. It is crucial for friends and family to engage in open conversations about mental health, to create safe spaces for individuals to share their struggles without fear of judgment.
The burden of regret weighs heavily on my heart. I replay our last moments together in my mind, wishing I had held on a little longer, wishing I had asked more questions, wishing I had been more present. The guilt of not recognizing her pain gnaws at me daily. I often find myself wondering if a simple conversation or a moment of vulnerability could have altered the course of her life.
The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, available 24/7 at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), provides resources and support for those in need. It is vital for individuals to reach out for help and for friends to offer a listening ear. If you are battling similar feelings or know someone who is, please do not hesitate to seek help. You are not alone, and there are people who care and want to support you.
As I honor Denni’s memory during this Suicide Prevention Month, I am committed to raising awareness about mental health and the importance of reaching out to those in distress. I encourage everyone to educate themselves about the signs of mental illness and to foster an environment of compassion and understanding. We must remind one another that it is okay to ask for help, and we should never hesitate to offer support to those who may be struggling.
Denni’s presence in my life was a gift, and I will forever cherish the memories we created together. As I navigate the grief of losing her, I hold onto the hope that by sharing her story, I can inspire others to recognize the signs of mental health struggles and take action before it’s too late.
This year, as we reflect on the impact of suicide and the importance of mental health awareness, let us honor those we have lost by committing to change. Let us engage in open conversations, educate ourselves and others, and create a world where individuals feel safe to share their struggles.
Together, we can build a support system that prevents future tragedies and ensures that no one feels alone in their battles. Denni’s spirit will live on in our efforts to foster understanding, compassion, and hope for a brighter future.